this could be an addiction...


thinking again. oh gosh how i hate it.
well i was reading some old messages on my myspace.
and all these emotions and feelings just came out.
i never knew simple words could affect so much
or it could be my lack of any other type of stimulation.
i tried to ask her out friday, but my confidence slowly disappated and turned to fear.
quite simply put, im the guy you come to when youve got a problem that needs solving
but when it comes to myself, im sorely in need of better advice.
i noticed that while i can bassically help someone get through what they are going through
i cannot help myself not even in the slightest bit.
i wish i knew me, so i could get advice from me.
or if there was someone more smarter than the
peers i surround myself with.
something tells me that living life this way is somewhat sad...
but sadly the way it will always be.

i will always be the guy who likes the girl who like the other guy
i will always help said girl get guy
i will be the guy who is happy for girl on the outside, while inside wishes he could just die
i will always be the loser
i will always be a sucker
i will always be picked on
i will always try to please everyone
i will always give in
i will always be the mediator
i will always try to help
i will always be depressed
i will always listen to the songs that only help to stir my sadness
i will always say the words but never act upon them
i will always say the wrong things
i will always hate who i am and the thought of who i am to be
i will always be there when she needs me
i will always give her hope for a better tomorrow
while i slowly die inside knowing that...
i will always be alone, but even after all of these
i will always be happy because i am content